I’m Depressed, Not Broken (2).

In my later years I came to find out that the mental illness I suffered from wasn’t as bad as portrayed by the ignorant lot of the society. Also, between you and me, it isn’t as bad as others (schizophrenia for example) and I didn’t get the brunt of it in the beginning so I could easily make peace with it. See, I have manic depression (or bipolar disorder for the lay) and so does the person I call mother.

Well, I only found this out three years ago and still haven’t fully come to terms with the fact that she knew what she was suffering from yet treated me like what I had was a curse from the devil himself and so was I. For one, this grew my liking for the devil for various reasons, the major one being that I was associated with him so often you’d think I was Buk’ki-Devil in full.

But anyway, I digressed. The reason I stated she had it wasn’t to bash her or anything of the sort; you’ll understand by the end of this and if you don’t, see me in private. Also around the same time, Google was one of the most prevalent things for little old me. You could almost bet I Googled everything I couldn’t understand or didn’t know or just wanted to know.

I’ll post a few excerpts from a few sites that I have come across to help you better get a grip on what I’m conveying. Around the same time I found out the person I called mother had bipolar, I Googled that shit. I didn’t know what that is and I hadn’t related it to what I was suffering from in any way, shape or form. Here’s one of the excerpts I stumbled upon in my rounds.

While researchers don’t fully understand the causes of bipolar disorder, they have identified some risk factors. One of the strongest risk factors is a family history of the disorder. This connection may be due to certain genes. Adults who have relatives with the disorder have an average tenfold increase in risk of developing the disorder, according to a 2009 review. Your risk further increases if the family member with the condition is a close relative.

That means if your parent has bipolar disorder, you have a greater chance of developing it than someone whose great aunt has the condition.Genetic factors account for about 60 to 80 percent of the cause of bipolar disorder. That means that heredity isn’t the only cause of bipolar disorder. It also means that if you have a family history of the disorder, you won’t definitely develop it. Most family members of someone with bipolar disorder won’t develop the condition.”

You’d think this would be something that’s well spread among those who had the courage to find out what the fuck was happening to them but you couldn’t be any more wrong. Not many people know that your offspring has a “tenfold increase in risk of developing the disorder.” They might not be to blame as they might truly be blind to the facts (which you’ll agree with me is something they can be blamed for in this internet age).

Others rely solely on the doctor to give them information because “doctor knows best.” Which is almost as incorrect as you can get. Most of our psychiatrists and psychologists don’t visit the internet as often if at all to stay apprised with current findings, that’s one. Two, this is something that’s still being studied by top doctors because they don’t even begin to understand the how or why bipolar disorder is what it is. Let’s take a step back and see the simple definition of bipolar disorder we get from the internet of things.

Bipolar disorder is a complex disorder that likely stems from a combination of genetic and non-genetic factors. The mood episodes associated with it involve clinical depression or mania (extreme elation and high energy) with periods of normal mood and energy in between episodes. It is a form of major affective disorder, or mood disorder, defined by manic or hypo-manic episodes (changes from one’s normal mood accompanied by high energy states).

Bipolar disorder is a serious condition. Mania often involves sleeplessness, sometimes for days, along with hallucinations, psychosis, grandiose delusions, or paranoid rage. In addition, depressive episodes can be more devastating and harder to treat than in people who never have manias or hypo-manias. The severity of mood episodes can range from very mild to extreme, and they can happen gradually or suddenly within a time frame of days to weeks.

When discrete mood episodes happen four or more times per year, the process is called rapid cycling. Rapid cycling should not be confused with very frequent moment-to-moment changes in mood, which can sometimes occur in people with bipolar disorder or other conditions such as borderline personality disorder … Bipolar disorder usually appears between ages 15 and 24 and persists through a lifetime.

While mania is the main characteristic of bipolar I disorder, bipolar II has milder periods of elation known as hypo-mania. It also has episodes of major depression. About 90% of individuals with bipolar I disorder, which is the more serious form, have at least one psychiatric hospitalization. Two out of three will have two or more hospitalizations in their lifetime.”

As you probably might have picked up, there’s two types of bipolar disorder in this article. You have bipolar I (the more aggressive one that isn’t as common) and bipolar II (the milder one that’s more widespread). Bipolarity is now considered a spectrum disorder because of the vast number of variations. There are a multitude of sub-types of BD (bipolar disorder), resulting in an illness that is unique for each person.


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